It feels good!

I'm pretty sure I o'd either Wednesday or Thursday, but I don't know because I'm not temping. But you know it feels really good! I'm not stressing over what my temp is going to be tomorrow, or what that little twinge was, although I know it would be too early for that anyway.

It feels so good to have a break from it all, I still go in GP and I'm still entering cm & "symptoms" on FF. I don't know what CD I am on from day to day. I just look at my ticker and it said CD 15 and I just thought WOW I could be getting AF in 10 more days if this cycle is anything like last cycle.

I think I'm going to try to hold out until Feb. 7th if AF doesn't show, to test. But who knows I might test earlier. I'm just enjoying these next few weeks.

Things are going so much better at school now, I have all of my lesson plans done through Feb. 5th! Now all I have to worry about is having a job next year since they are talking about all of these budget cuts.

Whatever is supposed to happen will I'm a firm believer in that.

I'm still working on the whole losing weight thing, I forgot to weigh in today so I will do it tomorrow. I need to go work out...

Little Red Nighty

So I bought a red nighty last Valentine's Day, but didn't wear it, because I really wasn't happy with the way my body looked. To be quite honest I'm still not happy. I have jumped back on the Wii Fit wagon and I am going to try my hardest to be back in shape and comfortable enough with my body to wear it this year for V-Day.

Now all I need is DH to go get the excercise bike that his Grandma gave me and I will be in good shape. I can do this in less than a month right?!?

I guess the good comes with the bad

We went and looked at the house and really liked it. Check.

We went to the bank and got pre-approved for a mortgage. Check.

We call DH's dad about the inheritance money that we need to be able to buy the house. Where is the check??

He has DH's money in a CD that he can only access a few times a year. He THINKS it will be avaliable next month, but doesn't know for sure. He won't be back in town until Tuesday. I am so annoyed. Its not his money so he should have it somewhere that we can get it when we need it.

We also found out that someone else is looking at the house.

I always let myself get excited about things like this and then something always happens and it doesn't work out. I just need to stop getting my hopes up. But when it is something that would better me I can't help but get excited.

Here's to hoping the CD does come avaliable next month and we can get the process rolling.

On a positive note I was supposed to get an informal evaluation by my AP by the 15th and she never came. I was on pins and needles all week, but she never came, I guess she will do it in 2 weeks when we go back to actually teaching!

My New Obsession!

I think blogging has become my new obsession. I'm not temping this month so I have no chart to look at. I just want to write my feelings down all the time.

We went to look at the house last night, and I think we are going to go to the bank tomorrow! We love the location and its a nice neighborhood. I'm not in love with the floor plan, but we won't be there forever. It will be just perfect for us for now!

I will be really gald when this week is over. I have been trying to get ready for exams next week and it is just a lot of work. I will be glad when its all over!

Exciting News!

A class I need to take was cancelled at the local community college, but I found the same class at a community college about 45 minutes from us, but it is online!!

We are also going to look at a house sometime this week, my cousin is a realtor and he is going to show it to us! We saw pics of it online and we drove by yesterday to see what we thought, it looks ok from the outside so now I can't wait to see the inside! We might actually finally be homeowners!!

AF arrived Saturday, but I'm trying to stay positive. We are taking the month off of charting and just seeing what happens. I know the basic time frame of when I O and I'm hoping that if we just have sex when we want to it will happen. If not then I will call my NP and we will start the testing process after this cycle. So either way it will work out, either I will be pg or we will get answers. My amazing BFPB Kismet, told me some things that I need to ask my insurance company if they will cover, so I will at least know financially what I am getting into.

I'm about half way through my first book of the book challenge and looking forward to all of the reading I will be doing this year!

She's coming...

I have been spotting for the last two days, and I had a pretty significant temp drop this morning. But thats it no cramps, nothing yet. So now I sit and wait. FF can't decide if I O'd on CD 12 or 15, it has changed my O day the last 3 days.

I had to get that out. That is all for now.

New Year

Happy 2009!

I am so thankful that 2008 is over, I can honestly say it was the worst year of my life so far.

I'm looking forward to 2009 with fresh eyes.

I'm not making any resolutions this year I'm making goals. Here are a few that I have come up with so far:
1. I joined the Nest Book Club, 25 Books in 2009 challenge. I really think I can achieve this one.
2. Attain a full time teaching position within my school system, I'm only part time now.
3. If I don't get a BFP this cycle, I want to tell our families that we have been trying and that we are moving on to the testing phase, I know we will need their support through the process.
4. Figure out why I have not gotten a BFP yet.
5. If I don't get a BFP soon I want to get back in shape and be happy with my body again.
6. Purchase our own home, this will probably only happen if I get a full time position.
7. Blog more often.

These are the goals that I have set for myself so far. I'm sure I will add to them later.

Updates

On the job front: my principal came in and observed my class, it went great! He was supposed to discuss it with me but that was a month before we got out for Christmas and I still have not talked to him about it, so I must not have screwed up but so bad. I will have an informal observation when we go back with my AP again. Sometime before the 15th. I have a lot to get done between now and then too, self-evaluation, mid-term exam and all of that. I'm ready though and can't wait to show her what I am really made of!

On the family front: DH and I have had some great conversations lately, we are so ready for a baby, we are just waiting on God to decide the same thing. My SIL's pregnancy turned out to be tubular and she had to have the fetus and her tube removed. She totally ruined Christmas because we will not allow her abusive bf in our home. So because she wouldn't come, MIL or Grand-MIL wouldn't come to Christmas either, it killed me to see DH so hurt. Two days later they all came over like nothing had ever happened. I'm still mad, but I will get over it eventually I guess.

On the TTC front: we are now on cycle 15, month 13 and cycle 6 charting. This is the last month of have good timing or call the NP so we can start running some baseline tests to see what is going on. I still have not confirmed O so I'm hoping to do that soon, in about 2 weeks I will be making a call. Either to say I'm KU or I need to schedule an appointment to discuss our next steps. I am praying that it will be the first reason, but also trying to prepare myself if its the latter. DH has been so great the last 3 cycles with being tough and getting business done when it needs to be done, although I think it is starting to wear on him a bit. He's been a trooper!