Are things finally turning around?!?

So I will start with a positive this time, many or most I should say, of my last posts have been rather depressing. I had my meeting with the Principal and I think I got things worked out, I showed him that I really am a good teacher and that I'm here for the right reasons and no matter what anyone says to me I will continue to do what I do.

I also finally found a way to ask my mother how long it took her to get pg with me. I worked it in to a conversation so she would have no clue that we are trying. It took her 2 years. I'm only at the one year mark, I'm hoping it doesn't take me that long, but if it does it does, as long as I get to have a baby.

In an update to my pg SIL, she now thinks she may be having twins because her numbers were higher than her ultrasound was measuring?? Not sure it that really means anything, but she just had to drop that one on me last week the same day that AF came.

Happy Thanksgiving to you all!

Wednesday's Meeting

I wrote in my last post that I had a meeting with my department AP and my school Principal on Wednesday.

I was very nervous because I didn't know what it was about. They wouldn't tell me.

I go in and the Principal says first off relax, so I'm thinking ok maybe I haven't done anything wrong.

Boy was I wrong! Basically everything that my AP had already discussed with me was brought up again. She told him that I couldn't write lesson plans, and that I didn't know how to write an appropriate objective. That she felt lost when she observed my class.

Never once have I had a student say anything like that to me. Neither of my mentors have ever said anything either!

She slammed me pretty hard infront of him, and then when I tried to defend myself she did not support me at all. I thought that was what administration was there for, not to bring you down.

I also felt like she should have given me time to improve and then maybe gone to see the Principal. I have been teaching for 2 months, I know there are still kinks to be worked out. But instead of letting me work them out she went behind my back and went to the Principal.

Now they are putting a Professional Improvement Plan in to action for me. And it will go in my file. That really just sucks! Two months on the job and I already have a letter in my file, yea that is going to look really good!

I am so frustrated. I feel like I have no support from my Admin. my co-workers are great though. This just sucks!

What a week...

This has not been the best week, although we have had lots of sexy time, haha. DH and I have had a few arguments and what not. Nothing to serious and we got everything resolved immediately.

My parents and sister have been on a cruise all week, which sucks because I talk to my mom and sister at least once everyday. They are coming home today though!

Yesterday I would have to say was the worst day of the whole week though. Everything was going just fine then at the end of the day I get an e-mail from my Assistant Principal saying I have arranged a meeting with the Principal and I Wednesday at 11 am. No explanation nothing. So I tried to find her to ask what it was about and where it was and she was in a meeting. Now I had my formal observation a few weeks back and she gave me a couple low marks, so that was all I could think.

On the other hand I proposed a new course for next school year and I am just hoping and praying that is what it is about.
I e-mailed her to see if I needed to bring anything and all she responded was you will not need to bring anything. So now I have to go until Wednesday not knowing if its about my class or if I'm going to get my butt chewed! Blah!!

The worst part of the day was when I saw that my SIL had posted on MySpace that she had just found out some exciting news! I new immediately that she was pg again. So I messaged her but she didn't respond so I text her and she told me. Now she doesn't technically know we are trying but she has asked enough questions that I assume she at least thinks we have been trying. She was so insensitive. When she told me she, I respond that's what I figured. The she responds, don't sound to excited. And I just didn't respond, she is unmarried already has one child that she can't take care of, and is in an abusive relationship. So she then text me again saying WOW! I take that as a no, well I'm excited and scared at the same time. She had another baby almost 2 1/2 years ago that died shortly after birth. And mind you I would be terrified too, but she doesn't need another baby.

She messaged me back last night and told me that she and her bf were both in counseling and that he was going through anger management. That his mom (who hated her) had excepted her back into her life and that she just wants her family to do the same. She doesn't seem to get the fact that we don't want a man who has beat her repeatedly in our homes. So she then told me that until we did except the fact that she was with him and allow him into our homes that she nor our nephew would be involved in any family holidays.

So she is taking him away! I just cried, DH got home and I told him he was floored but not overly surprised, he knew it was coming just as I did. But I told him that we have been trying for a year and she can just get knocked up, we have a loving home and supportive families, and we could afford a child.

Sometimes life just doesn't seem fair, but I trust that God knows what he is doing, I may not understand it now, but I will one day.

When will it end??

When will all of the death in my family end? I'm so tired of losing the people that I love.

Thursday night my great-aunt died, she was only 59 and has a son the same age as me. Minus the diabetes and kidney failure, the same thing took her that took my grandma and great-grandma already this year.

My parents and left yesterday for a cruise so I am left to represent that part of my family. My mom called me this afternoon to tell me that my Papa's brother had died last night. That is 4 people in 5 months. I'm not sure how much more of this I can handle.

Meanwhile we are still trying to get PG, but for some reason this weekend (I should be ovulating tomorrow) every time I bring up anything sexual DH acts like I have the plague or something. I cried for a while earlier, I still feel like crap.

We went to an ATV safety class today and now my knee is swollen and hurts like the dickens.

Oh yea and when I came home I got in the shower and before I could get both legs shaved the water softener kicked in to cycle through and I lost water pressure.

This day sucks! I can't wait for it to be over!!