What a weekend!

Wow! This weekend was such a roller coaster ride. Friday night was pretty much calm, nothing exciting.

Saturday was ok, I took the Praxis II social studies content knowledge that morning, had to get up at 5:30 am to be there on time that was no fun. Don't know how I did on the test. I just want my scores back.

Saturday evening, we went out in the river and spread my grandma's ashes at her favorite fishing spot. It was hard, but nice. When we went out it was raining, but as we came out of the creek the sun came out. My great-grandfather said a little prayer, and spread the ashes and we all threw flowers out to follow the ashes down the river. We brought some balloons for the little kids to let go. When they let them go, they went up soo high. The sun was shining down through the clouds, and it looked like the balloons went right up into the clouds. I asked my little cousin where the balloons were going and he said to heaven. It would make your heart melt.

My grandma was everything to that little boy, and he new that she was having a party up in heaven!

Sunday morning at 3:30 am I get a phone call from a friend of mine, I was groggy so I didn't answer, but then she called again at 4:45, so I had to answer. She just lost her grandmother last week, and then the day of her grandma's funeral, sometime near 3:30 am when she called me the first time, her step-brother was in a very serious car accident and had to be cut out of his truck. He was flown to the hospital and said to be in a coma, I'm going to call her today to check on everything.

After that it was great, we had our big softball tournament. It is a double elimination tourney, and last season we lost the first two games and we were done. We lost our first game Sunday morning, due to a bad call if you ask me, but you can't really go against the oldest ump in the league and the commissioner of the league, who was playing on the other team. The second game, we were ready, we had beat that team 16 to 1 two weeks prior. We won, we were on to game three, we started immediately! This team we had not beat all season and a win would be great! We whooped 'em. 18-10! Wooo Hooo! Then we had to play the first team we played again, ugh. It was close but in the end they beat us by one run.

Even though it meant our season was over, we had some major victories! Now we are ready for fall ball!

I Got the Job!!!

I am thrilled beyond words right now, you just have no idea! I got a letter last week saying that I was not chosen for a teaching position at my old high school. But there were two positions available, one full-time the other part-time. When I got the letter it did not specify full or part-time so I just assumed I didn't get either. I was crushed. Then at 5:30, yes 5:30 this afternoon, I get a call saying that they chose me for the part-time position!! I was so excited! They had to present my name to the school board tonight! I was at my parents when I got the call and came out of the laundry room screaming! Its such a huge relief knowing that I have a position! And since it is only part-time, I can work another job and go back to school! I am sooo freakin' excited!!

PS: Its for World History I & II, so freshman and sophomore history!

I'm Livid!!

I am so mad right now, at myself and at others. I had an interview at a grocery store this morning that is 20 minutes from my house, no big deal. Its not really what I wanted for the summer, but I need something so why not. I left early because I wasn't really sure how long it would take me. So I sat in the car for about 15 minutes before I went in. When I got out of the car I hit the door lock and shut the door. I immediately knew what I had done. I locked my keys in the car. Crap! So I go inside and tell them that I am here for my interview and they look at me all funny. Turns out the person that set up the interview did not inform the person that was doing the interview that I was coming and she left before I went inside, I'm pretty sure I saw her leave. Double Crap! So after we discovered that there would be no interview I asked to use the phone because I had locked my keys and phone, I never take my phone in to an interview with me, in the car. They let me use the phone and I called my husband, who was working about an hour away today. Again Crap! So he tells me to call my grandparents or my FIL so I called my mom to get my grandparents work number, because they are only 2 minutes away. But they are on vacation. So I called my FIL and he went to my house and got my spare key and brought it to me. Thank heavens for my FIL!

So far today has sucked beyond belief. Yesterday wasn't much better. After softball my mom had me come over to her house to get some more of my stuff from when I was a kid. And ended up getting me to go through all of mine and my sisters baby clothes. It made me so sad, because they do not know that we have been trying for over 9 months. I hope this week gets better soon. At least my husband is home all week.

Life

So life has been kind of crazy lately, and is just starting to get some sort or normalcy back to it. My grandmother passed away almost two months ago after a four month battle for her life. We knew she was sick but a week before she died we had no idea that it was that serious. Here is some background: almost 9 years ago she was diagnosed with kidney failure, she had been on dialysis 3 days a week ever since. Fast forward to February 18, 2008. She was scheduled to have a bypass on her right leg that week, but the pain was so unbearable that she was admitted to the hospital, she had the operation that Thursday. A week later the incision came open and she almost bleed to death, thank God my mom and I were there when it happened. From that time until her death she went back and forth between hospitals and the rehab. at the local nursing home. A week before she passed away she was transported back 45 minutes away, the original hospital where she had the initial surgery. We thought she would be able to have another bypass and come home and continue on her road to recovery. Then we were given the devastating news that she would have to have both of her legs amputated. At first we didn't know what to think and decided to let her make the decision. She agreed to go through with it, but was very scared and made sure to tell everyone that they needed to tack care of another. The night of her operation we were all at the hospital, my husband was at work. We had all been back to visit with her and my sister and I had just left the room. Not 20 minutes later they called a code blue. While we were hoping it was not her, I knew in my heart that it was. My husband immediately left work when I called him and was by my side through it all, and for that I will forever be grateful. They were able to revive her, but the next day, she coded again as we were trying to decide as a family if we should sign a DNR. When she coded that time, we told them to leave her alone, and with 19 family members present she passed.

We held a memorial service later that week, and so many people attended, I don't think she ever really knew how many people truly cared about her. She loved loud music and she loved to dance. So at the conclusion of the service we played James Brown "I fell good," to memorialize her spirit and as a symbol that she isn't hurting any more. She is dancing on the golden streets of heaven now.

While this was the most difficult thing I have ever experienced, I am learning to cope. I am so thankful for the 4 months that I had with her as I visited almost everyday, and sometimes more than once a day. I also learned many things about my family, one in particular that I would like to share is that we were pirates! According to my great-great aunt and great-grandpa, a great x 5 grandfather of mine, John Henry C, was a pirate in Maryland, he got to be so bad that he was run off at the threat of his life. He came down to the Eastern Shore of VA, from there they split to two parts of the VA coast. My family kept the original family name and the other added an "s" to the end of theirs so as not to be associated with the Maryland pirates. I was fascinated to learn this information.

While I still have my moments, I have started to go on with my life. It will never get any easier and I miss my grandma dearly, no one could ever replace her.